Word and World

This is last month of the year, I was looking back at what I have accomplished. For some strange reason my performance review at my work is being dragged from last three months, Oh!.. That is not the subject of this post. When I was looking at my life … What was surprising for me was I have achieved (or rather have) what I said some 5 years back.

You closely observe your life, your life is conversation you have about your life. You may not agree but I’m inviting you to experience for yourself.

When you say life is tough, you have difficulty.
When you say life is not fair, someone has duped you.
When you say life is struggle, you are struggling
When you say Accept life as it is, you have as it is life.
When you say life is full of problems, you have problems.
When you say life is boring, you have boredom.
When you say life is adventure, you have adventure
When you say life is game, you have game
When you say life is fun, you have fun
When you say life is journey, you have journey
When you say life is ______. You have ______

Further …. When I say life is fun, I have fun, it is not just what I say, It is actually what I say to myself. (just observe once you experience that it is amazing ! )

At this point I don’t how to train or control my inner voice/conversation but one thing which I have read and agree is we can work on our language we speak. Focus on what You want to accomplish and Not on what you don’t want to accomplish !
For example : if you want to reach office on time , always say “I must reach ON TIME” rather than “I should NOT GO LATE”, instead of saying “I should not FAIL” say “I should PASS”

See you then !

Who are you?

Last week when wrote of ‘Death of identity’, my wife did not like that. My be I was not eloquent to express myself.
What I was really meant and experienced is that, each one of us have one the true “Self’” and one or more identities. At any point of time it is either you or your identity at play, when your identity is acting or present you are not there. When you get present to this fact your identity will vanish and your true "self" will emerge. Then there is no more reasons for your actions you take actions for your “self”. And you will experience “Anything is possible” and IT IS.

Death of identity … Who am I ?

Who am I ? … my name?? my job?? My designation??.. a son?? Husband?? Brother??.. my feeling ?? …my body??… my thoughts??... what my thoughts say ‘who I am’ ? … my language ??... my identities like … hardworking…sincere… etc…

Some part of me is going through a turmoil … and lots of fear inside of the unknown?? Fear of “Nothing” … but is it is very scary …

All these days I lived for my expectation about somebody else’s expectation … I will never fulfill on them .. they never get fulfilled … they are like a bucket with a large hole in the bottom .. you keep filling it will never gets filled…

Ok.. then let me say I’m will live for myself … here also the same situation … I never gets fulfilled … there is no option for “I” but to die. … but “I” will not die.

What got to know is “I” is not ‘me’

From the Window

Things are going as per plan ! Ghee!... Spoke with my buddy and we are creating a whole new game … Started my work on time and will complete on time … a friend a work shared biscuits … and short while I have hot sip of coffee … wondering what is happening … one day you are completely down and dead ! (?) and other day you are enthusiastic ….creating and in charge of your life .. What is the source ? … I know mind says “It is you” … the little “me” within says “ may be a good nights sleep!” … is it the future called “Weekend” ?? …whatever … Is it life? .

What's up??

What's up??

Missed my cute niece’s birthday … again at work messed-up the report and back to square one … I’m not confronting the work… trying to escape … but escape from what ?... escape into what ? .. that is the question …. One part says … ok .. go on … other says .. You are what you say you are …. Suddenly getting that techniques are not working of creating and being the possibility … integrity … context …. Who am I ? … outside you can not see anything …. Inside there are infinite thoughts…. I know past is illusion … future is not known… only real thing is NOW. Is knowing makes any difference?

Bystander

…. Just created this blog to put my observation about myself, others and life…. Life has been kind to me so far … lot excitement and fun … I will keep posting my “Thoughts on leadership” at my Thoughts at work … and here I keep posting my anything and everything …